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musings.

a period of reflection or thought. pondering. contemplating. meditating. 

if I let go of trying to do healing, and simply noticed what feels nourishing ... what would I see?

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One night I was thinking about colour. About how when my marriage ended I was drawn to anything with the colour teal, or peacock blue. I needed those colours to help me heal. But now I have different colours around me ... softer ones. Pale grey, pink, blue, green and grey. It occured to me that we often intuitively know what to do to help and heal ourselves, and it isn't rocket science. We are drawn to what we need if we allow ourselves to listen. It doesn't have to be complicated or clinical. It is often being present to what feels good / right or nourishing in the moment. When we allow this ... healing is already happening.

sometimes healing doesn't look like a breakthrough

it doesn't come with fireworks or tears or a sudden ah-ha knowing

sometimes its the soft pull towards a colour that soothes

or the texture of a fabric that feels familiar

or the comfort of curling up under a blanket

this is the quiet medicine we forget

the gentle ways in which our bodies and our soul already know what is needed

you don't always have to seek healing

sometimes it is just about noticing what feels good, or what fills you up

its in the moment we put on that piece of music

the colours we choose without thinking

the pause to reflect

and when you are drawn to something - let it speak to you

you're not making it up

you are remembering how to take care of yourself

and the healing is already happening

often in the most ordinary and beautiful ways.

You are responsible for your own healing. No-one is coming to save you. Not your partner, your therapist or guru. They can support you, but you need to do the deep work!

Your triggers are your teachers. What irritates you in others is often what is unresolved within you. Every emotional reaction is an invitation inwards.

Being spiritual doesn't mean being comfortable. Real growth is now. Awakening often comes through breakdown, darkness and chaos, not just light

You can be deeply awake and still have trauma. Healing and awakening are not the same. You can experience oneness and still snap to old patterns until they are processed somatically.

Love is no possession. Wanting someone to stay, act or feel a certain way is not love.... it's attachement. Real love is freedom even if it means letting go.

Love is not possession. Wanting someone to stay, act or feel a certain way is not love.... it's attachment. Real love is freedom, even if it means letting go.

You attract what you are ready for, not what you want. If you keep experiencing the same patterns, it's because your nervous system still recognizes it as "safe" even if its painful.

Your ego will fight to stay alive even during your spiritual awakening. It will spiritualize your superiority, disguise control as "boundaries" and mask fear as intuition.

I didn't write these, but I believe them 110%. Until we do our shadow work, heal our wounds, clear our soul agreements and let go of our ego [easier said than done] ... we will keep repeating the patterns and being triggered. But if you do do your work, what is on the other side is amazing ... peace, happiness, joy, harmony. It is possible. I have done it. Still doing it. I'm human, its an on-going process!

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